chrysanths | yves / turboheaven pc

[ cuddles his best friend unabashedly... him love you...... ]

But... you felt them because of me. [ a little guilty ] Because you care about me. So I'm grateful, even if I'm sorry.

[ he brings a hand up just to run through adolphe's hair, smoothing it back and trying to help settle him with whatever assurances he has that yves is right here and he's okay ]

Thank you for loving me. I'm sorry I make it hard.

[ oooouuuugghhhhh

The physical contact is really reassuring. He really didn't want Yves to die for his own selfish reasons even if Yves himself doesn't care, because that's really all he can be: selfish. ]

... You don't make it hard.

[ He mumbles. ]

I've gotten into a lot of trouble...

[ he keeps nearly getting scapegoated and he's on a suspect list every week and he shows up bloody and doesn't know all his injuries and then last week he just killed a girl ]

I guess I am pretty reckless.

[ he's heard it enough from other people by now.... ]

You think?

[ Ooooooohhhhh he's so peeved that he lightly headbutts the side of Yves's head. Suffer. ]

... Despite that, it's still not hard. However, it's a separate thing entirely.

Ah.

[ accepts the headbutt with just a lil knock but ]

.... but I just don't like anything that makes you upset.

Is this you're way of telling me that you don't like yourself?

[ Like. He knew that already but. ]

... well, it's been harder lately.

[ to like himself, all things considered ]

[ Really. These two guys don't like themselves the most, and yet. Adolphe frowns. ].

Even though the person standing in front of me is the person that's really important to me? And the one I would trust with anything?

[ . . . he really is so easy. there's a part of him that's buoyed by this, even if everything else... feels so bad. ]

... it does warm my heart to hear it. [ softly, and he'll just sigh ]

I feel a little better after talking to Claude this morning. It's part of what was tearing me up all week...

[ Even though Adolphe is frustrated, he also gets it. He doesn't think highly of himself either. it's rough out there for depressed people. ]

I'm glad you could talk it out with him.

[ .... ]

... I also tried talking to him like you asked me to, but it just felt awkward each time.

[ He's not good at this. But he attempted. (lopsided golden five pointed apparatus that cannot be called a star) ]

I did realize a little later that it was kind of a bad idea. You're both great people, but Claude asks so many questions because he doesn't like being known and you would hate answering them because you also wouldn't like being known. And then he'd feel awkward and distant, and it would kind of just go in a loop so you'd just be stuck in vague pleasantries....

It's not either of your faults, though....

[ it's just

so funny now that he's thinking about it ]

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[ Thanks. He never wants to socialize with strangers again. ]

... Your heart was in the right place, I guess.

[ As it always is, but with mixed results. ]

It was, but that's because I love both you and Claude. You both always make me feel better, so I guess I was a little optimistic in hoping you could do that for each other.

[ alas......... you are exactly the same type of person in the ways that hilariously repel each other ]

[ still he's just sighing ]

But since I told him about it... I can tell you now. I got an apple on Saturday after what I did to Samuel, and I thought at the time that it would be good to use it on someone afflicted. When Claude was killed on Sunday, we all thought he was—so I felt... that I was too late, really.

I... couldn't forgive myself for that. For not being able to save him, when I had the option right in my hand. It was hard. [ a sad little laugh ] I had trouble sleeping for days.

[ he was spiraling so bad earlier in the week to the point that he couldn't keep it out of his letter to adolphe ]

He's cleared things up with me and I'm not mad, I just...

Ah, it was hard to carry.

[ Adolphe should be glad that such a heavy burden was lifted from Yves, and he is. While he's glad that happened, he can't help but to feel a tinge of something rotten inside himself. It's the selfishness that he's aware of, even though he should be happy for Yves. It's so ugly. Repulsive.

He mentally swallows the feeling and holds Yves's hand. ]

It's over now. It must have been a huge hurdle for you to go over. To have such a person care so deeply for him, he's lucky that he has you.

He is, right? I won't let him forget it.

[ smug and bratty.... truly the yves that hops out once he's actually your friend and not just looking for love

but he'll happily hold adolphe's hand, and intertwine their fingers like it'll serve as a little seal so adolphe can't go any further ]

I know I just got here, but I did hope you looked through my letter about what we can do after redemption... A lot of people have opened their homes, if we want to go somewhere else. If you want to be somewhere you don't have to hide and we don't have to go digging through timelines to find a good one.

[ it's almost like there's only one truly good best route where everything works out... wow.... ]

[ yeah the route he gets MARRIED TO CERES????

Anyway, Adolphe did read it, and he has to focus on that right now instead of the emotional grime he felt sticking to his insides. Pleasant. Really though. He's glad to change topics. ]

I don't know much about other people's... worlds.

[ Just saying that already feels weird to Adolphe. ]

But you must have. Did anything stand out in particular?

[ ........... ]

Actually, I'm surprised you haven't asked me about Elysia's.

[ IMMEDIATELY DISTRACTED

brightening up!!! assumes adolphe is talking about ellie's ADORABLE LETTER ]

Are you gossiping with me? I didn't think you were the type to kiss and tell Adolphe, but I'd be happy to congratulate you on the relationship! Ellie's so cute and not to say I saw this coming, but I really did!

Does that mean you're going with her? Is that your answer?

[ Thank you. Adolphe is IMMEDIATELY OVERWHELMED!! ]

Wha... I... No!

[ Yves's face, meet Adolphe's palm. ]

[ wha

GRABBING ADOLPHE'S WRIST AND PULLING IT AWAY FROM HIS FACE ]

No?! What do you mean no?! Adolphe, get it together!

She's perfect! She's literally perfect!

[ He is so alarmed by Yves grabbing his wrist because he just lets it happen most of the time?? Huh????? ]

She's not perfect! To call her perfect is an insult--she's just like anyone else!

[ ..........................................

god. he's not having this conversation. He takes a perfectly cut piece of duct tape and just slaps that over Yves's mouth. Was he prepared for this? Absolutely. ]

[ huH

OKAY THIS HAPPENS

BUT HE'S TRULY JUST GOT THE MOST SHINY EYES.... HE'S SO MOVED.... ADOLPHE THAT WAS SO ROMANTIC............

JUST WHINES BEHIND THE DUCT TAPE AS HE TRIES TO COMPOSE HIMSELF!!!!!!!!! WOWWWWWWW ADOLPHE'S IN LOVE ]

[ Adolphe will just turn around to ignore all those sparkly things Yves is supposedly giving off in the imagination. He's shining too brightly and he wants none of that. Thank you. ]

[ anyway the funny thing about duct tape is that yves will just rip it off his mouth without fear because it doesn't hurt! haha yay!

with a clear red imprint on his mouth as he's just going to grab adolphe's arm for himself ]

Why are you being embarrassed? Knowing you two love each other is some of the best news I've gotten all day. If anything, I wish you'd told me sooner.

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