chrysanths | yves / turboheaven pc

[ still he's just sighing ]

But since I told him about it... I can tell you now. I got an apple on Saturday after what I did to Samuel, and I thought at the time that it would be good to use it on someone afflicted. When Claude was killed on Sunday, we all thought he was—so I felt... that I was too late, really.

I... couldn't forgive myself for that. For not being able to save him, when I had the option right in my hand. It was hard. [ a sad little laugh ] I had trouble sleeping for days.

[ he was spiraling so bad earlier in the week to the point that he couldn't keep it out of his letter to adolphe ]

He's cleared things up with me and I'm not mad, I just...

Ah, it was hard to carry.

[ Adolphe should be glad that such a heavy burden was lifted from Yves, and he is. While he's glad that happened, he can't help but to feel a tinge of something rotten inside himself. It's the selfishness that he's aware of, even though he should be happy for Yves. It's so ugly. Repulsive.

He mentally swallows the feeling and holds Yves's hand. ]

It's over now. It must have been a huge hurdle for you to go over. To have such a person care so deeply for him, he's lucky that he has you.

He is, right? I won't let him forget it.

[ smug and bratty.... truly the yves that hops out once he's actually your friend and not just looking for love

but he'll happily hold adolphe's hand, and intertwine their fingers like it'll serve as a little seal so adolphe can't go any further ]

I know I just got here, but I did hope you looked through my letter about what we can do after redemption... A lot of people have opened their homes, if we want to go somewhere else. If you want to be somewhere you don't have to hide and we don't have to go digging through timelines to find a good one.

[ it's almost like there's only one truly good best route where everything works out... wow.... ]

[ yeah the route he gets MARRIED TO CERES????

Anyway, Adolphe did read it, and he has to focus on that right now instead of the emotional grime he felt sticking to his insides. Pleasant. Really though. He's glad to change topics. ]

I don't know much about other people's... worlds.

[ Just saying that already feels weird to Adolphe. ]

But you must have. Did anything stand out in particular?

[ ........... ]

Actually, I'm surprised you haven't asked me about Elysia's.

[ IMMEDIATELY DISTRACTED

brightening up!!! assumes adolphe is talking about ellie's ADORABLE LETTER ]

Are you gossiping with me? I didn't think you were the type to kiss and tell Adolphe, but I'd be happy to congratulate you on the relationship! Ellie's so cute and not to say I saw this coming, but I really did!

Does that mean you're going with her? Is that your answer?

[ Thank you. Adolphe is IMMEDIATELY OVERWHELMED!! ]

Wha... I... No!

[ Yves's face, meet Adolphe's palm. ]

[ wha

GRABBING ADOLPHE'S WRIST AND PULLING IT AWAY FROM HIS FACE ]

No?! What do you mean no?! Adolphe, get it together!

She's perfect! She's literally perfect!

[ He is so alarmed by Yves grabbing his wrist because he just lets it happen most of the time?? Huh????? ]

She's not perfect! To call her perfect is an insult--she's just like anyone else!

[ ..........................................

god. he's not having this conversation. He takes a perfectly cut piece of duct tape and just slaps that over Yves's mouth. Was he prepared for this? Absolutely. ]

[ huH

OKAY THIS HAPPENS

BUT HE'S TRULY JUST GOT THE MOST SHINY EYES.... HE'S SO MOVED.... ADOLPHE THAT WAS SO ROMANTIC............

JUST WHINES BEHIND THE DUCT TAPE AS HE TRIES TO COMPOSE HIMSELF!!!!!!!!! WOWWWWWWW ADOLPHE'S IN LOVE ]

[ Adolphe will just turn around to ignore all those sparkly things Yves is supposedly giving off in the imagination. He's shining too brightly and he wants none of that. Thank you. ]

[ anyway the funny thing about duct tape is that yves will just rip it off his mouth without fear because it doesn't hurt! haha yay!

with a clear red imprint on his mouth as he's just going to grab adolphe's arm for himself ]

Why are you being embarrassed? Knowing you two love each other is some of the best news I've gotten all day. If anything, I wish you'd told me sooner.

[ He siiiiiiiiiiiiiiighs as usual as his arm is grabbed. ]

I didn't tell you, because I don't like her like that.

[ Sometimes someone is so extremely cute that you want to kiss them while you lost your [redacted] and [redacted]. ]

[

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Huh? Really? You're not just being shy?

[ HUHHHHHHH? ]

How many times do I have to tell you.

[ Yves's head gets bonked with a fist. ]

Yes, we did get closer over the weeks.

[ ......... ]

I would consider her a friend. She's done a lot for me and I'm grateful too.

[ he's just so baffled by this to the point that he's extra numb to the bonk ]

I just... don't see how anyone gets to know her and doesn't fall in love with her.

[ genuinely awed, because he just. he can't wrap his head around it. he fell in love with elysia so instantly. adolphe and elysia are two of his most beloved people, and adolphe just said something so romantic it's still making yves' head spin with whiplash ]

And if she got to know you then, it's the same thing... [ how do you spend time with adolphe once he opens up to you and not think he's just the best person in existence? how do you resist that? ] I'm glad then... that you were able to be there for each other.

[ even if he thinks they should 100% be in love and still seems utterly taken aback by this. he is more affected by this news than his own deathh ]

[ ..........

Adolphe raises his hand and waves it in front of Yves. ]

[ ah. blinks and tilts his head ]

Hm?

Why are you so shocked? Sorry to say, but Elysia can find better suitors who can understand her. I can't, so I'm already out of the running. Didn't she mention that as a criteria before or something?

[ He just handwaves. ]

[ okay

it's his turn to just gently cup adolphe's face in his hands and just

just fucking pull on his cheeks my gOD ]

You don't get to just say one of the most heartstoppingly romantic things I've ever heard in my life and then say you don't understand Ellie. You know she wrote to me that she's let you further into her heart? Stop being obtuse just because you don't see everything amazing about yourself that is so obvious to everyone else.

If you don't have feelings for her, truly, okay. But if you're getting in your own way, as your best friend, I can't allow that.

If someone loves you, just let them.

[ Ow?? Adolphe tries to shake his head to get Yves's hands off his face. If that doesn't work, he tries to pry them off with his own hands. ]

What do you think I've been doing all this time?!

[ adolphe can take his hands with his own hands then!! he just huffs and wiggles his fingers menacingly ]

I can't tell!! You never told me anything about your relationships in your letters! Sometimes I hear more about you from other people!

And sometimes I can't tell if you're getting in your own head about something and not letting yourself bask in something good you deserve!

[ Adolphe pauses and just stares at Yves. The first point? That's fine. That's just Adolphe being Adolphe. He doesn't want to talk about himself, especially since the last several weeks were him becoming slowly unhinged and just going "I'm fine" to people who couldn't see him personally.

But the second point? Oh. Oh boy. ]

I'll do that when you start letting yourself do the same.

I've done plenty of growing. I know that people care about me and I'm trying not to make them sad, even if I messed that up in the end.

[ huffs ]

I am trying.

[ ................................

Okay. Fine. He can't deny that. There's nothing to refute. But then the point goes back to him not letting himself get the good things that he deserves.

And there's a small crack that Adolphe hears--somewhere, someplace. It's the tiniest little line, jagged along something that's meant to eventually break. Adolphe looks lost for a moment before he opens his mouth to speak with a small voice: ]

... Then what do you want me to do?

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