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chrysanths) wrote2025-02-07 07:11 pm
chrysanths) wrote2025-02-07 07:11 pmlucas / turboheaven pc
THIS ENTIRE POST HAS HEAVY VIRCHE SPOILERS
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chrysanths) wrote2025-02-07 07:11 pm
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The sooner, the better, I'd say.
[Regarding telling Yves. THE RINK INSANITY TRULY GETTING IN EVERYONE'S WAY DAMN. MY GOD. Lucas is going to start throwing things. But with the question, he just kind of sinks into silence for a moment, contemplative. They do have a history, my god. Eventually, quietly, thoughtfully:]
...I'm quite fond of him, personally, but he is also a deeply hurt man with a very fractured mind.
[From one totally insane person to another, He Sees It. He saw it even before he got his brain ghosts on main at the kissing rink.]
I do worry for the obstacles you may face together with him, should you choose to accept... Though you also have a good deal of mental resilience, yourself. But loving him, I think, won't be an easy or simple task.
[Compared to Yves, whom he thinks loving is the easiest thing in the world.]
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Adolphe nods. He seems to understand. That profile really wasn't lying when it said that his personality was broken. ]
I'm aware that it won't be easy. In fact, I think it will push me to the limit. But...
[ He looks up at Lucas. ]
We're your friends and students, Lucas. We put trust in you. We get along because we like each other.
[ Platonic love or something like that. Anyway. ]
But have you ever met someone who seemed to understand you, so deeply to the core? Not due to sympathy, but because they experienced similar hardships? I don't think anyone can truly understand one another in any world. We can only speculate and guess how the experience must feel for other people. I can't claim to understand you in that regard either. Neither can Yves. Or most people.
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There's a little flicker of a thin smile, and he reaches out to ruffle Adolphe's hair fondly. Platonic love or something like that.]
What a dire way of viewing things. How very like you. [SASUGA ADOLPHE.] Though I suppose being here may have changed that even just the smallest bit, don't you think?
[Between the memshares and emotion shares and soon to be thought shares, they're all getting to know one another quite intimately, for better or worse.]
...Well. Only you can choose the right path for yourself, at the end of the day. I do think you should wait until you speak to Yves to make your decision. But I also believe that either of them individually would be enough to keep your hands full.
[He is not against poly, inherently. He just does not think it will work in this particular case, with everyone involved being who they are.]
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Being here made him insane with all the privacy breaches and he'll get another episode during rink insanity, but thoughtsharing is a little easier to handle. Kind of. Sort of. They're still his thoughts. ]
... I just thought that with Jacopo, it was the first time when I felt that someone had truly understood me. He's broken, yes, but I don't want to "correct" him. I want to help him get through things, to share the burden, and to show him that it's fine... to have someone like that. No one should be conceited enough to think that they can fully fix people.
[ It's all very hypocritical of Adolphe, because he definitely saw himself in Jacopo (too much spiderman pointing actually) and the fact that he does very similar things of pushing people away, but. ]
... I thought that it would be nice if I could pick up some of his pieces for him to help get him started at the very least.
[ .................
He feels embarrassed. Talking about feelings on main? Willingly? He never wants to do that again. Thanks. Adolphe also thinks that he can't handle both Jacopo and Yves at the same time, but it's nothing against poly. The two are............ indeed very big handfuls. ]
Anyway, I'll definitely talk to Yves first before I make my decision.
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Lucas just listens as he speaks, though, quiet and patient and understanding.]
...I think that if you're already looking at it from such a perspective, you'll do much better than someone who might have a desire to want to "correct" him.
[Lucas also thinks that some people just can't be fixed fully, and that's okay. He doesn't think Jacopo needs to be glued back together like some broken face. Just supported, so he's not shattering into worse and worse pieces. And if Adolphe and Jacopo share this understanding, then maybe they can be exactly that for one another.]
It's a lovely sentiment. To want to pick up someone's pieces is a very kind thing. And if you truly feel that the two of you share an understanding, then you can surely also help him in a way that others can't. Perhaps he can do the same for you.
[THEY REALLY ARE SUCH BIG HANDFULS THOUGH. But he nods at that.]
I wish you the very best, Adolphe, dear.
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Adolphe looks a bit embarrassed at that. Man. ]
... Thanks for listening. I just hope it will go well.
[ But knowing him... lol lmao ]
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But he just smiles at that! He has faith in his students!! Even though he shouldn't sometimes!!!!]
I'm certain that it will. The two of you have a long-standing bond, after all, and you already love each other so dearly.
[So it's really just a matter of navigating where that love should or could go next, he thinks.]
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It just... feels surreal. I never really thought I could be loved like that.
[ He looks over at Lucas, hesitating if he should say the next thing, so he takes a sip of the soup while trying to find the correct words. ]
Have you found someone like that here? ... I don't mean to sound gossipy, but you're always taking care of other people. I think you should have a chance too.
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[HE DOES HIS BEST........ UNFORTUNATELY. May Adolphe's ship(s) sail.
But also, there's a little tiny huff of an amused laugh at that.]
Oh, my. One might think you've been spending too much time with Yves, even though you've only been reunited for a short while. [MAN JUST DIED but sometimes you have to crack jokes to survive in this economy.]
Thank you for your concern, dear. I've found plenty of love and kindness elsewhere, and that is certainly enough for me.
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Good to hear. And... you joke about that, but I keep thinking certain things in a marriage context, because that's all he's been talking about for weeks. It was so bad that I thought Jacopo was proposing to me instead.
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Has it? I suppose he's been a little... excited, with the possibility of so many relationships to encourage. He would get so excited every time I "fell in love", even though I was cursed every Wednesday without fail.
[PLEASE HE IS SO TIRED.]
That's quite funny, though.
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[ Lucas falling in love every Wednesday?! ]
I saw the mess between you, Elysia, and Jacopo. That was...
[ ......................... ]
... something.
[ he has the eloquence of a sleepy dog ]
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[HE HAD SUCH A FUCKING HARD TIME. me as adolphe though girl mood. His expression sours just a bit at the mention of that whole fiasco, though.]
Whoever did that had very terrible timing.
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Oh. Did you get into an argument with Jacopo around that time?
[ Wait. ]
I mean, a real one that doesn't involve curses.
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[They are both such volatile and insane men.]
I hadn't had the chance to speak with him again before that... happened.
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Do you want to try again while you're here? Or...
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Oh - we were able to speak about it afterward. It was just a bit more awkward, given everything.
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[ The man is so violent. ]
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[He would not know, he has only spoken to Jacopo (looks) none times on this side at this point. OH JACOPO.]
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[ No hesitation. ]
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I still need to find him and speak with him here.
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[ Subdue! But gently. ]
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Whyever do you think I'd let that happen?
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[ He'd know. ]
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Are you speaking from experience, my dear?
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