chrysanths | yves / turboheaven pc

That's a secret.

[ It's not that hard to guess, but Adolphe isn't making this hard. ]

[ hmmmmm

it's not that hard to guess but yves still has no idea what he means. mostly because— ]

You don't have anything you need to make up to me... I know you're always trying your best, too. I'm happy as long as you're here.

I don't know. Ever since I felt awake in this afterlife, it feels like I can let go of some things.

[ Because Adolphe doesn't fuckin let go of things ever. ]

Or just not worry about them as much.

[ Which is why he can be so affectionate with Yves. ]

[ he'd tilt his head but he's really happy in this hold so he doesn't. it's just the vibes of wanting to headtilt like dog ]

Really? Like what?

... I'll tell you later.

[ He lost his courage about it...........

Instead of rubbing his cheeks, he cups Yves's face in both of his hands now. The vibes are so cute. ]

[ later is minimum one month later now

but yves has no reason to believe this! so he doesn't fight too hard about it! instead he's just content like this, pleased as can be to just be hanging out all affectionate with his bestie ]

Hmm... okay.

You're really still keeping your secrets from me, Adolphe...

[ Yeah!! ]

I think even I'm allowed to keep some. I told you my biggest one.

[ Hmph. He lightly squishes his face now. ]

[ wah

through squished cheeks: ]

It was a good secret... I still have more questions...

[ he kinda let it go because it was such an emotional time for adolphe but he really does want to know more about it ]

[ Adolphe finally lets go of his face. He's a little anxious because he's freely talking about it, which... he thought would never happen.

Wolf ears perk up. ]

Yeah? Like what?

[ gooby hold... yves will just shift so that he can rest against adolphe again, still closing that distance automatically now because he can ]

Well... how, I guess? I assumed you're like the Drifter...

But... we met when I was 14 so...

[ he doesn't know what adolphe's life was like before that at all ]

I think I was around 5.

[ So Yves wasn't even born yet...... ]

That thing about me and the ocean... the reason behind that wasn't because an accident happened while I was playing one day. I was tossed off a ship to die. Then I washed up on Arpechele's rocky shores somehow.

[ oh

he wasn't sure what the story would be. a sudden storm at sea? an accident during travels? the idea of being tossed off the ship to die... his arms circle around adolphe again automatically, as if to cling onto him and prove that he's right here ]

You didn't deserve that. [ first and foremost, before any questions or confusion. an utter rejection of whatever could've caused that to happen to adolphe ]

I know we're not alive here—but I'm glad you survived that. I'm glad we could meet.

[ Did he really not deserve that? When he was so useless and taking up resources when he could have just been sold? Being brought into the world just to be sold... a waste of space when he couldn't fulfill his purpose.

Though still, he acknowledges that his parents were pieces of shit. ]

... Mm. I didn't want to die alone.

[ A quiet moment of another vulnerability lingers. ]

It wouldn't be an exaggeration to say that you changed my life.

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[ ah. it strikes a chord for yves, who suffered the same fate. death in flames, but somehow still cold. somehow still so painfully alone no matter how he chose to live his life. in the end, still not enough for any person to cherish.

he can't say anything about how adolphe died but— ]

Then I'll keep doing just that. [ insistent, confident ]

I won't let you be alone. [ except he does because adolphe dies alone later this evening. another failure. another person he can't save. but for now there is warmth and certainty and him closing the distance between them in a hug ] Just focus on living more—with me.

[ Adolphe always had to think about life and death. Even after dying, he can't stop thinking about it and how his life wasn't really worth living.

But he leans against Yves a little into the hug, closing his eyes. He's warm. ]

... I'm sure that I enjoy living a little more when you're with me.

[ cute... yves accepts the little lean and once again just nuzzles affectionately against the side of adolphe's head. he is annoying and over the top sometimes, but he is so full of sincere, genuine love. for adolphe, most of all. ]

I wonder what I can do to make that into a lot more...

[ a little sigh ]

You work so hard for us, Adolphe... For me, I know my life is fuller after getting to meet you.

I'm sorry you went through something so difficult... You deserve something much warmer than all of that. I'll make sure that you get it.

Yeah?

[ It's after today that Adolphe will fully think that he'd been taking Yves's sincerity for granted. ]

You've already done so much.

[ But he knows Yves isn't the type to half-ass anything. ]

So take a break before you do some more.

Take a break? From caring about you? I'm sure you know you're asking for the impossible, Adolphe.

In general.

[ He lightly headbutts the side of Yves's head. It's a little similar to how a dog lightly headbutts out of affection. ]

You always overdo it... it worries me sometimes.

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Overdo... what?

[ he just leans back against adolphe's head.... ]

Everything.

[ He even nuzzles a little against Yves's head. Wow! It ends with a sigh though. ]

I just...

[ His voice trails off. ]

I don't want you to burn out... I guess.

[ oh.

yves accepts the little nuzzle with so much affection, but at the last thing adolphe says, he does still a little bit in understanding.

and he'll just tuck his face against adolphe's shoulder, snuggling in like he means to hide away. or heal. either. both. ]

... towards the end of everything, I think I felt like that. Hugo did his best to help but...

[ the level of despair that yves felt was probably too much for any one individual to help him patch up, even his partner and best friend ]

But I'm okay here. I feel a lot better.

[ this is no longer true by week 5 ]

[ Wow. If Hugo couldn't do it, how can Adolphe do it!!... is what's going through Adolphe's head right now. ]

Mm. I hope you won't ever have to feel like that again.

[ this is no longer true by week 5 ]

[ adolphe is doing just fine right now!! given how content and pleased yves is just to be able to be so close and comfortable with the person he trusts most in all of heaven ]

... I doubt it? [ he has no idea ] I mean it's...

[ he trails off a little bit, because it's still a little hard to talk about sometimes, but. ]

... first, I lost you. Then Ceres. Then Monsieur Lucas and Nadia. Then at some point, Mathis and Jean disappeared... and then Scien resolved the curse but then he had his emotional breakdown and...

[ hugo can't carry the entire weight of everyone that yves called a true friend by himself ]

By the end, when I had to be the one to end everything... it did feel a little... heavy.

[ Their current position makes it easy, so he gives Yves a hug. Boy. Sometimes you're not okay and it's fine to admit that. ]

... Only a little?

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