chrysanths | yves / turboheaven pc

[ gooby hold... yves will just shift so that he can rest against adolphe again, still closing that distance automatically now because he can ]

Well... how, I guess? I assumed you're like the Drifter...

But... we met when I was 14 so...

[ he doesn't know what adolphe's life was like before that at all ]

I think I was around 5.

[ So Yves wasn't even born yet...... ]

That thing about me and the ocean... the reason behind that wasn't because an accident happened while I was playing one day. I was tossed off a ship to die. Then I washed up on Arpechele's rocky shores somehow.

[ oh

he wasn't sure what the story would be. a sudden storm at sea? an accident during travels? the idea of being tossed off the ship to die... his arms circle around adolphe again automatically, as if to cling onto him and prove that he's right here ]

You didn't deserve that. [ first and foremost, before any questions or confusion. an utter rejection of whatever could've caused that to happen to adolphe ]

I know we're not alive here—but I'm glad you survived that. I'm glad we could meet.

[ Did he really not deserve that? When he was so useless and taking up resources when he could have just been sold? Being brought into the world just to be sold... a waste of space when he couldn't fulfill his purpose.

Though still, he acknowledges that his parents were pieces of shit. ]

... Mm. I didn't want to die alone.

[ A quiet moment of another vulnerability lingers. ]

It wouldn't be an exaggeration to say that you changed my life.

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[ ah. it strikes a chord for yves, who suffered the same fate. death in flames, but somehow still cold. somehow still so painfully alone no matter how he chose to live his life. in the end, still not enough for any person to cherish.

he can't say anything about how adolphe died but— ]

Then I'll keep doing just that. [ insistent, confident ]

I won't let you be alone. [ except he does because adolphe dies alone later this evening. another failure. another person he can't save. but for now there is warmth and certainty and him closing the distance between them in a hug ] Just focus on living more—with me.

[ Adolphe always had to think about life and death. Even after dying, he can't stop thinking about it and how his life wasn't really worth living.

But he leans against Yves a little into the hug, closing his eyes. He's warm. ]

... I'm sure that I enjoy living a little more when you're with me.

[ cute... yves accepts the little lean and once again just nuzzles affectionately against the side of adolphe's head. he is annoying and over the top sometimes, but he is so full of sincere, genuine love. for adolphe, most of all. ]

I wonder what I can do to make that into a lot more...

[ a little sigh ]

You work so hard for us, Adolphe... For me, I know my life is fuller after getting to meet you.

I'm sorry you went through something so difficult... You deserve something much warmer than all of that. I'll make sure that you get it.

Yeah?

[ It's after today that Adolphe will fully think that he'd been taking Yves's sincerity for granted. ]

You've already done so much.

[ But he knows Yves isn't the type to half-ass anything. ]

So take a break before you do some more.

Take a break? From caring about you? I'm sure you know you're asking for the impossible, Adolphe.

In general.

[ He lightly headbutts the side of Yves's head. It's a little similar to how a dog lightly headbutts out of affection. ]

You always overdo it... it worries me sometimes.

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Overdo... what?

[ he just leans back against adolphe's head.... ]

Everything.

[ He even nuzzles a little against Yves's head. Wow! It ends with a sigh though. ]

I just...

[ His voice trails off. ]

I don't want you to burn out... I guess.

[ oh.

yves accepts the little nuzzle with so much affection, but at the last thing adolphe says, he does still a little bit in understanding.

and he'll just tuck his face against adolphe's shoulder, snuggling in like he means to hide away. or heal. either. both. ]

... towards the end of everything, I think I felt like that. Hugo did his best to help but...

[ the level of despair that yves felt was probably too much for any one individual to help him patch up, even his partner and best friend ]

But I'm okay here. I feel a lot better.

[ this is no longer true by week 5 ]

[ Wow. If Hugo couldn't do it, how can Adolphe do it!!... is what's going through Adolphe's head right now. ]

Mm. I hope you won't ever have to feel like that again.

[ this is no longer true by week 5 ]

[ adolphe is doing just fine right now!! given how content and pleased yves is just to be able to be so close and comfortable with the person he trusts most in all of heaven ]

... I doubt it? [ he has no idea ] I mean it's...

[ he trails off a little bit, because it's still a little hard to talk about sometimes, but. ]

... first, I lost you. Then Ceres. Then Monsieur Lucas and Nadia. Then at some point, Mathis and Jean disappeared... and then Scien resolved the curse but then he had his emotional breakdown and...

[ hugo can't carry the entire weight of everyone that yves called a true friend by himself ]

By the end, when I had to be the one to end everything... it did feel a little... heavy.

[ Their current position makes it easy, so he gives Yves a hug. Boy. Sometimes you're not okay and it's fine to admit that. ]

... Only a little?

[ melting into the hug automatically, clinging back shamelessly!

it seems like he's not going to answer for a while, because truly he got so trained into the need to be the hero over four years. the one who was going to save the island. it's hard to admit that he was faltering beneath it all but. ]

... maybe a lot.

[ The silence is fine. They can sit here comfortably just like this for a while. Adolphe makes it so that it's more comfortable for Yves as usual. ]

No, it's definitely a lot.

[ He gives a slight squeeze in the hug. Shhhh.

Being dead once really just made Adolphe go "fuck it" and be more affectionate with his actions. ]

[ it is a lot.

to kill a friend for the sake of protecting everyone else. wow, hope he doesn't have to do that again. sure hope a two nickels situation isn't coming.

but it is nice to admit it, and it is nice for adolphe to confirm that it was so much to go through. yves appreciates the little squeeze because this is the weeks before he starts walking around with broken ribs, and he sighs contentedly into adolphe's shoulder, nestling away as he shuts his eyes ]

It's okay. I could do it. I did.

[ he did everything that needed to be done. ]

[ Adolphe is here to be your sanity checker, Yves. Except he dies. Then I guess Yves can go insane. ]

That's right. You did. That's enough of that for one lifetime.

[ Good thing that the afterlife is happening. ]

Now you can rest, and have a sleepover under the stars with your friends.

[ he does... he takes poison damage gradually every week after this....

but he looks up at adolphe curiously ]

.... you really think it'll be okay?

I still trust your instincts. Don't get me wrong.

[ About it repeating again. ]

I rarely want to hope if there's no basis in it, but... it would be nice if things will be okay.

[ . . . it would be nice. he takes a moment to think about it before breathing out a sigh ]

... maybe I've just gotten too used to things going wrong. It'd be nice, right? So... if this is really close to heaven, maybe it's okay to believe in nice.

... I guess it's fine to believe in nice every now and then.

[ He lightly pats his back. There, there.... ]

If things go wrong, you can come to me.

[ he just laughs at that ]

I already always do...

You're sure my weight isn't too heavy to carry?

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